Studies Have Shown...

I've been wanting to blog about this for quite a bit of time now but thought that maybe it wasn't the best idea. Being that it has now been researched, I feel I can speak somewhat freely.

I have a hard time seeing myself with anyone long term due to this need to be loved unconditionally. Being the proud owner of three wonderful animals, I have become accustomed to this unconditional love. I can beat them, yell at them, or punish them and still my babies love me, unconditionally. Unconditional love is something ingrained into the puppies which they do not question.


In almost every relationship I've been in, there's been an underlying thought in my mind - He would love me more if... I was prettier; I lost weight; I wasn't so bitchy all the time; I was more social. Maybe I was (am) just being self conscience but those feelings and thoughts have persisted through out each of my romantic encounters.

I'm sure I can trace this to its source - My Mother. Mommy Dearest dipped when I was just a mere child and this has had a ridiculous impact on me. This event has caused me to have severe trust issues (if Mom can leave, anyone can (and they have - the only people to truly break my heart have been my 'friends')) and has hindered many a relationship. I've had doubts that this woman has ever loved me unconditionally, even though I'm told that's what parents are supposed to do (SIDE NOTE: I received an Easter card from her last week which was signed: Love, Your 'Bio' Mom, Annie - this was a first, my 'bio' mom?! - she is definitely losing it). Maybe if I was a better daughter, she would have loved me enough to stay or at least put up a fight for me.

My point - I can honestly say that the best relationship I have ever been in was where I was one half of an 'I Can't Believe She's With Him' couple. I know what you're thinking, with all my loveliness wouldn't every relationship I'm in make me one half of an 'I Can't Believe She's With Him' couple? Perhaps, but this was the only time I saw it for what it was. It was the only time I felt I was truly loved, unconditionally, by a person.

As Metallica would say, You know it's sad but true.

Ask RobX About Anal Sex

Today on danielleisonline.com, you can Ask the Expert - Ask RobX - about the trials and tribulations of anal sex.

Did You Know?!

Did you know that Robert Downey Jr. will be acting in black face in a movie? I didn't know you could do that. He looks kinda like Tiger Woods.

News of the World

I have absolutely no idea what's going on in the States but I can definately keep you abreast of what's running in the British papers.

The Daily Mail ran this article today.

What I learned today:
Chicks are crazy.

!@#$%^&*!

As the medication wears off the impulses are coming back.

Yesterday I made a purchase at amazon.com for next day (i.e. TODAY) delivery.

I cannot go the weekend without Seasons 4 and 5 of Star Trek: The Next Generation, and the books Manic: A Memoir; The Crazy Inside: A Poetic Journey Through Manic Depression; and the autobiographies Losing It: And Gaining My Life Back One Pound At A Time (by Valerie Bertinelli) and sTORI Telling (by Tori Spelling).

But I have to. My items did not ship last night. Fuckers.

The Urban Dictionary

I stumbled across urbandictionary.com by chance today after googling RobX. I was able to find very accurate definitions for RobX, Danielle (I prefer definition 2 myself), and Michelle (I've personally used her for definition 5).

I am always happy to expand my dictionary.
Sometimes when I wake up late, I go into work in my ice cubes with my hair all frangled.
I love McDizzle's and/or McDonald's!

Looking to widen my vocabulary, I clicked for a random definition and it shuffled to the middle of some 'N' words. Some of the stuff people posted is absolutely horrible.

Med-less

Today is Day 8 sans medications. Today is better that yesterday. I still feel ate the fuck up but what can you do?
I was perusing the kooky med kicking site and found this gem - post #473:

fuck cymbalta smoke some marijuana instead of this bullshit my eye twitches alot now
473. Posted by foblarlar on April 28, 2007

Funny.