New Year's Eve

Long time to no blog. Seems like I’ve been typing that a lot. I still have no idea where my days go.

On this eve, I am anxiously awaiting and hoping 2009 will be better than 2008. It’s been a rough year for me, you, the American people, the economy. Here I sit, alone, on New Year’s Eve. My Man is off at what he tells me is a lame ass barbeque and will be home way before midnight. I was invited, but of course I cordially declined. I’ve spent every New Year’s Eve alone for the past 5 years, I surely didn’t expect (nor want) this one to be any different, prior to that it was a few New Year’s Eve of craziness with Garcia. I’m getting older now. I don’t know if I can even stay up until midnight. What to do, what to do? What else but blog about the horrors of 2008 while getting my buzz on at home, drinkin’ me some Strawberry Hill Boone’s Farm. Yep, yep. You read that right. This one’s for my homies. Oops – didn’t need to spill that pink stuff on the floor (Dude, it’s BOONE’S FARM! You can’t put it in a glass or in a cup – you gotta tilt your head back and lift the whole bottle up. Wicky, wicky (Looks like 2009 may be better – I just came up with that fly rhyme.).).


A Shitty 2008

Where to start? How about inflation?
I went to McDonalds this weekend for a Bacon, Egg and Cheese Biscuit (Mooch and I’s favorite back in the day – I’m now a McGriddle whore) and the price for just the sandwich was over $2! WTF?! Don’t they know most Americans are struggling due to the shitty economy and every now and again you may want to treat yourself to a little something nice for breakfast and now it like $5+ for a friggin’ McDonald’s breakfast meal? Every 2 for $2 deal is a McMuffin of some kind – I guess an English muffin is cheaper than a biscuit. Come the fuck on.
Gas hit $4+ a gallon this year. That sucked. Especially since I’ve been home for months and have rarely driven and when I did have to fill up, gas was always outrageous. I’m telling you, the man is trying to keep us down.

I became poor.
I lost my job this year and for the first time in my life, I haven’t been able to spend at will and my following a budget sucks. I’ve always been very fortunate to make good money and for the first time, I ain’t got shit.
Anyone looking for a roommate? I may have a room to rent.
Being that I’m milking the system, I applied for food stamps last week. Hehe. Who’d have thunk I’d have sunken to that level?


I’ve gone back in time.
After being laid off my life has come full circle. I’ve gone back to school and am going back to work this spring for the first peeps to give me an office job at 17, black nail polish and all. A plus – I’m only working one job. When I did this before at 17, I was working two. Unfortunately, if my situation gets anymore fucked up I might have to get another one. Another plus, I got A’s in both my classes for the fall semester (I can’t remember if I blogged that or not). That’s something I didn’t do in ’96 – I think I got an A & a C, completing my 1st part-time semester in college with a 2.0 GPA. My GPA is now a whopping 1.875; basically what is was 12 years ago. McFly – get me the hell outta here. No one liked me at 23, what would make 17 so different?
Classes start January 8th and I’m already making myself sick by stressing out.


I got married.
Everything is still fine and dandy with My Man that I moved in 9 days after our first date and less than a month after my last really, really nasty breakdown. I got a beautiful wedding set a few weeks ago – I’ll post pics at some point. Now all we need is the diamond for the engagement ring but having to put the abrupt financial changes, that’ll be another year or so. I have come to the conclusion that My Man and I are spiritually married, since I take his paycheck, so he got a ring too. It really is a lovely man’s ring with recessed diamonds so it doesn’t get fucked up when he’s working.


Fucked up girl.
2008 had me spiraling out of control in a string of reckless behavior, including a revisit to my cutting days and new addictions – I’m still working with the Xanax issue; God I love Nyquil. My mental frame of mind has been all over the globe this year. I’ve been much more manic in 2008 than any other year, a mania that can be exhausting and almost always gives me a hangover of a day or two of depression. I have learned that I absolutely cannot be off of my normal medication. It is imperative (I feel guilty just typing that – we all know I usually pop off my meds at least once a year.).


The first person of color has been elected into the presidential position of the United States of America.
I’ve had close to 90 blog postings, compared to a measly 33 in 2007.
Warner Brothers delayed the releasing the Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince movie, anticipated to come out Summer 2008, it was pushed to Summer 2009.
All My Family is still crazy.

Just another year. They really do start flying by. This, by far, I think has been one of the worst for me. I feel like I’m at the bottom so there’s only one way for me to go.


BTW – Sorry if this isn’t fully proofed. I’m close to half way done with this bottle of Boones – it’d be gone if I were a thirsty person – and I’m starting to feel like I’ve drankin’ about a half bottle of the homeless and ghetto preferred, flavored citrus wine.